Winter Season was coming up, scrolling down the list with multiple sports to choose from to represent Moanalua High School. All of the sports seemed really intriguing but I didn't know how to play any of them. Until I stumbled upon soccer. I have been playing soccer for about 10 years now and I thought it would be an honor to play Varsity level soccer for high school. Then it all started to crumble down.
"Boys Varsity Soccer Tryouts, boys varsity soccer tryouts will be held today after school. Be ready with your cleats , shinguards, and water. See you there!" That phrase on the morning bulletin was ringing in my head all day. Focused and determined to get a spot on the team. Practicing and conditioning for months now made me feel that I was in the best shape I ever was in and made me think I guaranteed had a spot on the team. Looking back at it today, made me look super cocky and arrogant.
As day one of three finished from tryouts I felt really good on my performance. My skill level was there and it was going well. When upperclassmen who made the team last year acknowledged me saying that I was one of the better ones of the group it boosted my self-asteam and my head rose so high. When day two came for tryouts, I wasn't worried in school no more. I thought I had it in the bag. I walked to the field with a high sense of swagger like I was a soccer legend right after the bell rang. I slacked off thinking I made the team already, walking through drills and fooling around. With the coaching knowing my name I thought that it was a good sign that he liked me.
Day three was finally here. Excited as ever and anxious for the school day to finish. He said that right after a light practice he will read the list of names who made the team. 1:45 came and I scurried out the room. Practice went on and it was a light scrimmage. With me executing passes and scoring a goal, I just wanted to finish and hear my named be called from the list. No more than 5 minutes passed and practice had ended. We all ran up the bleachers and waited for coach to come up and read the list. He said before he read the names that he was taking about 25 people. At that point I thought that my chances of making it was 25 of 25. After 20 names were called, I was anxious and telling my "teammates" here we go I am next! Then all of a sudden he stopped. I was so confused. I started asking everyone if they heard my name. "Congratulations to the boys who made it, if your name was not called than sorry we couldn't take you." I dashed into his office and said "Coach how come my name wasn't called?" "Shimo you had the talent and the skill level was all there, but your just to small."
Devastated and sobbing I rushed out the office, went home and cried my eyes out.
This experience affected me emotionally and physically because every time I would play soccer, I felt like I wasn't good enough. Skipping meals and not doing much set me back but I just had to let it go and learn from this. During the off-season for me while the soccer team was still playing, I would watch their games and learn the style of play and take notes on what I can improve so I can make the team this upcoming year. Working out and eating 4-5 meals a day made me stronger and made me maintain my weight and still manage to be in shape.
Being cut from the Varsity soccer team was definitely a horrible experience but a memorable on too. It was a set back yet a learning experience. Entering this upcoming year as a Sophomore I learned from my mistakes and gained knowledge on how to make the team. From being to "small" I grew 4 inches and gained weight to help me in tryouts. With family support, determination, perseverance, and staying humble you can achieve anything. Hopefully all goes well so I can represent Moanalua HIgh School and be on the Varsity Soccer Team.
This experience affected me emotionally and physically because every time I would play soccer, I felt like I wasn't good enough. Skipping meals and not doing much set me back but I just had to let it go and learn from this. During the off-season for me while the soccer team was still playing, I would watch their games and learn the style of play and take notes on what I can improve so I can make the team this upcoming year. Working out and eating 4-5 meals a day made me stronger and made me maintain my weight and still manage to be in shape.
Being cut from the Varsity soccer team was definitely a horrible experience but a memorable on too. It was a set back yet a learning experience. Entering this upcoming year as a Sophomore I learned from my mistakes and gained knowledge on how to make the team. From being to "small" I grew 4 inches and gained weight to help me in tryouts. With family support, determination, perseverance, and staying humble you can achieve anything. Hopefully all goes well so I can represent Moanalua HIgh School and be on the Varsity Soccer Team.
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